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[Oct. 22nd, 2005|04:30 pm] |
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all i have to say is
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[Oct. 20th, 2005|11:55 pm] |
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boys suck so much! i hate boys!!!! why can't they just tell you how they feel. like what do you want me to do?! amd i supposed to smell it if you like me or if you dont!?
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[Oct. 20th, 2005|11:37 pm] |
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jamie is over and jamie is gone. jamies decided its time to move on. jamie has new dreams hes building upon, and I'm still hurting. Jamie arrived at the end of the line. Jamie's convinced that the problems are mine. Jamie is probably feeling just fine. and I'm still hurting. What about lies Jamie? What about things that you swore to be true? What about you Jamie? What about you? Jamie is sure something wonderful died. Jamie decides its his right to decide. Jamie's got secrets he doesnt confide, and I'm still hurting. Go and hide and run away! Run away. Run and find something better! Go and ride the sun away! Run away, like it's simple, like it's right.
Give me a day Jamie. Bring back the lies, hang them back on the wall! Maybe I'd see, how you could be, so certain we had no chance, at all.
Jamie is over and where can i turn? Covered with scars I did nothing to earn. Maybe theres somewhere a lesson to learn. But that wouldn't change the fact. That wouldn't speed the time. Once the foundation's cracked, and I'm still hurting.
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[Oct. 20th, 2005|11:03 pm] |
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here in the dark, i stand before you knowing, this is my chance to show you my heart, this is the start, this is the start, i have so much to say and im hoping, that your arms are open, dont turn away i want you near me, but you have to hear me, heres where i stand, heres who i am, love me, but dont tell me who i have to be, heres who i am, im what you see, you said i had to change and i was trying, but my heart was lying, im not a child any longer, i am stronger, heres where i stand, heres who i am, help me to move on but please dont tell me how im on my way im moving out in this life we've come so far but we're only who we are let the courage of love show us the way we've got the power to stand up and say. heres where i stand heres who i am, stand up and be couting im counting on you if your with me we'll make it through heres where i stand heres who i am love me love me love me and we'll make it through heres where i stand baby baby baby im counting on you heres where i stand love me love me love me and we'll make it through im counting ohhh im counting, im counting im counting oonn YOU! heres where i stand heres who i am. im counting on you heres where i stand heres who i am. we'll make it through, heres where i stand, heres who i am. |
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[Oct. 14th, 2005|10:51 pm] |
I want a bad boy with a soft side. Who'll make me laugh. A boy who will let me play with his hair. A boy who will stop and wait for me in the hall; take my hand; and walk me 2 classes away. A boy who will never be ashamed of me. He'll go to something even though he doesnt want to; just to see me. A boy who will run his fingers through my hair. A boy who would take the long way to class and be late just to see me for 30 seconds. A boy that can free style for me. A boy that would look me in the eyes and sing me something random but sweet. A boy who would tell a girl that he had a girlfriend. A boy who would make out in the rain with me. A boy who would lay under the stars and tell me stories as I lay my head on his chest. A boy who'd come up behind me; take my hands and lay his head on my shoulder so I can put mine on his. A boy who lets me pay for somethings. A boy who would take someones cell phone; go into the bathroom and call me if I wasnt in school; and find out where I was. A boy who would meet me at my locker. A boy who'd let me sit with my friends at lunch; and when we'd look at each other from across the cafeteria; we'd smile at one another. A boy who'd come and sit with me and my friends. A boy who would beat another guys ass if they were messing with me. A boy who would go places with me and my friends even though he'd be the only guy. A boy who would laugh at me when I get a detention; only because he's sitting there next to me for the same reason. He'd help me with my homework; even thought he doesnt know it either. A boy who'd burn me a CD of songs that make him think of me; and I'd do the same. A boy who would pin me against a wall and kiss me. He'll take me to the movies and see a stupid kid movie just so we can sit in the back and make out. A boy who lets me take pictures of him at embarrassing times.
hehe i stole this from my friend because i think its cute.
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[Oct. 14th, 2005|10:20 pm] |
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| | ashlee simpson show. | ] |
today was pretty boring. nothing happened really. the day went by really slow. i had an acting lesson with totally toby and then i went out to eat with my dad and then jess came over. we played pool and ping pong and we like tried to hit the ping pong balls as far as we could stuff. she just left a little while ago. right now im really bored. im attempting to get myself to start some homework because i have a busy weekend. tomorrow morning at like 7:30 i have the PSAT and im not excited at all because by that time i will probably still be half a sleep. im going in my pajamas for sure. then after the PSAT's im getting dropped off at alex's house and then we are going to coreys party. then on sunday i have rehearsal from freaking 2 in the afternoon until 10 PM. im not too excited about that. anyways im tired and i think i'll probably go to bed in a little bit because i have to wake up at like 2. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2005|12:07 pm] |
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so this weekend was fun. friday i sat home and did nothing. saturday i went to see Camelot at 2 and then i went straight from there to Alex's house and saw everybody there. it was good to see everyone again. the party was really fun. especially because there was a drunk guy who was like a rapist. he basically grinded with every girl there like wicked intensely and it was hilarious. then there was the sketchy kid who like whenever he walked by me would like touch me. at one point he touched my ass. it was pretty awkward. then after that i went to katy's house and slept over there. that was fun. i fell asleep on the floor because i dont sleep during the week so that was pretty funny. then we woke up and then i took a wicked long shower. we went to the topsfield fair and almost froze to death so we left after like 3 hours or so. that was fun. then we went back to katys and soon after my dad came to pick me up. we went to eat at fajitas and ritas and then we saw hairspray. when we were there i saw like 20 people i knew. i saw ryan finnegan, patrick brady, and like all the act people. then i saw the lead singer of the band that played at alex's party there. and i also saw emily from aida. and i also saw the guy who was in camelot and who was jack in the original broadway Into the Woods. that was fun! now today i am sitting here doing nothing when i should be doing homework and cleaning. later im going to sams house to work on our project with her and tyler. then i have dancing. then i have rehearsal tonight. long day ahead. okay. im going to go attempt to do some homework. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2005|08:03 pm] |
well right now its about 8 and i still havent started my homework and i have a ton of stuff to do which is probably really good. i am such a procrastinator its unreal. right now my foot is asleep and im smashing it on the floor to wake it up. i feel like painting my nails but im not going to have any time because homework is my life basically. i dont know why im sitting on the floor cuz my butt hurts. im trying to figure out what to do for localsss. ughhh, i have no idea what to do. paul says "You should do an erotic dance of some sort." alright paul i probably will. ugh tomorrow i have 1000 cranes rehearsal. not excited. im not a fan. and right now i think im going to go force myself to do my homework and possibly finish before midnight for once.
PEACE OUT. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2005|10:39 pm] |
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right now i really dont feel that great. like i feel emotionally down. i dont know. and i just want to sit here and do nothing or like go to bed or something. and therefore i write an entry. i guess im a mess. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2005|09:41 pm] |
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well right now i am really bored and i should be doing my homework but i really dont feel like it. i just ate waffles. frozen waffles. 3 frozen waffles. i feel wicked fat. i also feel like i am about to fall asleep which is good considering, i still have to do my homework. i am such a procrastinator its not even funny.
so i just like fell asleep for a few minutes in the midst of writing this entry which shows my enthusiasm. right now the tag on the inside of my shirt, like on the side is extremely itchy. i already cut it but the remaining part of it is like scratching my skin and it doesnt feel so good. yet i continue to wear this shirt. smart move. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2005|02:18 pm] |
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well, i suppose i'll start this entry off on a good note. so tyler and i go to ashlee simpson tonight and we got to the avalon at about 6:15, 6:30 or so, and the line was quite lengthy so tyler and i decided to go get something to eat before waiting in line, and then hopefully by the time we are back, we wouldnt have to wait to get in. so we walk back up the street and since the only place we could eat was either unos, bertuccis, or mcdonalds, we decided to just go to mcdonalds because it was the fastest. then we get our food and the guy gave tyler too much money back so he ended up paying 2 dollars for his whole meal but i wasnt so lucky. then we go and sit down and dont have ketchup so i get back up and go to the little drink thing in the front where the ketchup is, but when i get there, the big thing of ketchup was MIA so i just went back to eat. the fries were like the grossest fries i have ever had, so that was nice. then we like ran back to ashlee because for some reason we were like wicked late and we had lost track of time and we ran all the way to the avalon and got there at almost 7:15 or so, just as the guy was closing the door. so we sprinted in and the guy felt bad for us so for some reason he decided to bring us up to the front of the floor. this was not exciting enough but ashlee touched our hands during...im pretty sure the song was "boyfriend" and the like she like pointed to us and a few others in the front and some guy like came out of nowhere like under the stage and told us to stay after the show was over. so we were wicked excited. we waited for like 15 minutes after the show was over and then we got to go in this room because we had these orange bracelets and we got to meet ashlee!!!! and then she signed one of her new cd covers and gave us this thing so that we could get the new cd on the day it comes out at..strawberries im pretty sure, for free! YAY!!!!!! then after that we were walking to the train and we stopped at dunkin donuts to get a drink and i saw ghetto gabs and her bf there!!! so that was exciting. then we went home and we went to tylers house and watched a kid with polio tap dancing and it was kinda scary. then my parents came to pick me up so i went home and then when i get online i hear about the greatest thing to ever happen in my life. SOMEBODY made out with a certain SOMEONE while they were DRUNK tonight. AWESOME. way to RUIN an amazing night. some people just suck at being a good friend i guess. and right now i will go listen to music to try and get my mind off of STUPID people. |
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